This Utter Silence; 5.4.

this got published in a book, from may.

must i talk.
must we confront?
no; the utter silence speaks

must i feel.
must this pain endure?
no; the utter silence numbs.

must i see.
must i be cursed with your presence?
no; the utter silence blinds the pain.

must you laugh.
must you taunt my effort?
no; the utter silence hides you.

must we be.
must we have once been?
no; the utter silence forgets us.

must i listen to this.
must i hear your voice?
no; the utter silence overpowers.

must i want you.
must i want you endless times?
no; the utter silence shushes me.

must this go on,
must i be trapped in your eyes?
no; the utter silence rescues me.

the utter silence;
the utter silence;
its not working anymore.


this utter silence;
its screaming.
its screaming out to me.

this utter silence;
its wanting.
its wanting me to give it.

this utter silence;
its unforgiving.
its unforgiving and strikes me with hurt.

this utter silence;
its breaking.
its breaking down, im giving in.


this utter silence was quieted by the sound;
the sound of my heart beating;
my heart beating;
for you.
for you